I was raised to tell the truth, as a young Christian I was told that the truth honored Jesus. The truth is, I no longer find the stories and claims of the Bible to be true. The truth is, I wasted more than 20 years of my adult life laboring to help spread a lie. I gave my time, my money, my talents in the hope that God was looking out and going to provide me with all that I needed.
And when I finally admitted to myself and to my family that I no longer believed….well, some have chosen to accuse my family of following Satan (or being deceived by him). Others just seem to choose to forget that I have stated flatly that I do not believe and will never go back to church. They continue to speak to me about church and Evangelistic efforts they support, as if I would really want to know about how they are trying to spread a faith that I consider false and and unverifiable. It has put a wedge between me and my family, and I wonder if telling the truth to people that say they believe in truth while acting as if they don’t, was worth it.
Don’t get me wrong, letting go of my Christian faith is the best thing that has ever happened to me and my family….and that’s the truth….it’s just that it is not fun to tell people the truth when the ask you, only to have them be dismissive or combative in return.